Today's post congress on the heels of an enlightened discovery. The msn I married two years ago is not my soul mate. We are great friends but we have both realized just that we are great even the best of friends but we are not meant to be married. We are okay with this and we are keeping the peace. Honestly, we are great on our relationship. We are at peace.
Been an interesting year happy New year. Here is to a better 2013
Anger questions parenting
When I parent I try my best to make it logical. And ready to build upon, why can the answers be no more but yes later. For example, my nine year old decided that she was going to get those new sketches with the heel sneakers. She got them through a program at her school that gets under our low income families new shoes once a year. We are not low income but this service really does help. So I find her decision not wise but not something to make a big deal over. My husband, who is there syrup father not adopted them yet, thinks it is a bad decision because none year old don't need to wear heels. Yes they are impractical shoes but they cover the basic needs of her shoes for school, closed toes, and they even support the ankles. I know she is starting to identify beauty with the things she wears so I don't she why she can't wear these. And because I did not see eye to eye with him on this he got perturbed. Next issue was about hybrid with him. Our daughters are bad at remembering to take showers, he is trying to place responsibility on them.when in fact it is our responsibility until they are ready. I don't want him parenting my girls until he get his stuff in order. How do I get it through to him. I've told him a couple times already. Very frustrating.
To top it all off, he blew up and smashed his phone into the refrigerator during a fight and flipped my sewing table up and almost hit me, if the light switch didn't nick the table on the way up I probably would have been hit by the table. We discussed his anger issue and that he needs to talk to a counselor. I even offered to do it through marriage cuddling of he needed it. But he had shown no effort to solve this. So I have been avoiding him and been pretty busy with things for the past couple of days. He is mad because he wants to spend time with me but I don't. He scared me good. I'm tingling
Thinking I may need a separation or divorce to get it through to him that his behavior is inappropriate.
Thoughts? Email me at sbmmmommy@gmail.com
It is the hottest night of the year, my husband can't sleep because it is too hot do he turns on the fan.I can't sleep with mode so there for I am up.o have Benn told I could sleep in a volcano and be comfortable but any noise and I'm up. Such polar opposite we are.I don't know how it works out but it does.
Aurora: Story of your first kiss
My first kiss happen in kindergarten, his name was Frankie. It invoked a chocolate milk box and a cute Italian accent. But then again I did not believe in cooties.
Rapunzel: 5 things from your bucket list
1. Sky diving
2. Rest sushi in Japan
3. Learn American sign language
4. Sing in my worship team at church
5. Eat in Hell's Kitchen
Dory: Something someone has told you that you can't forget (two good things and one bad)
G: you will always be loved
G: you will never be forgotten
B: Im to fat to be a ballerina when I grow up
Pocahontas: Something new you taught someone.
Knitting
Mulan: Do you trust your gut feeling? What happened.
Yes trusting my gut to change careers slightly and take a new job offer is doing me well.
Jasmine: The story of when you had to really trust someone. Was it easy?
I trust people, that is who I am. But once you have done something that hurts that freely given trust it its not rapidly granted back. Let's just put it simply my ex cheated on me. I now do talk to him but I will never trust him with my heart.
Belle: Is there someone you are close to who no one else likes? What's the story?
I don't talk to him much anymore but there was a friend in middle school named Kevin N. He wasn't the coolest looking. He wasn't the smartest. But me and him talked. We talked about technology, school, and everything. He lost his mom due to a medical issue in middle school and we remained talking buddies for a good time. Every once in a while we still say hi. But he taught me to not judge people on how they look out the circumstances that he is going to, just talk and being there for someone can mean a lot.
Ariel: Where do you think you belong, and why?
I belong with family. I love to help people and I love to be there for my family.
Flounder: Something that surprised you and frightened you.
How uneducated purple shape and mold other in their ignorance. I know I don't know everything but I don't want to less someone down a path wrongly because I failed to educate myself.
Eric: Have you ever helped a stranger? What happened.
At the donut shop last month, a patron was trying to buy donuts I think for her son's sleepover. He debit card was not working at the atm. So I just dropped a twenty paid for it got my change and said God bless. She hugged and thanked me, and offered to pay me back. It wasn't necessary.
Aladdin: A sacrifice you made for someone.
I gave up finishing an associated degree so that my now ex husband could finish school. It turned out okay, I still work in the field but without the degree
Tiana: A time you tried the hardest for something.
When I first found out my husband, now ex husband was chatting on me. I let him know I wanted to work things out. He didn't want to buy I held my guns. I worked on it for two years. I eventually have in an stopped fighting to work for it. That is when I left and he ended up in jail. We now have a relationship that is purely friend but it took him being convicted wrongfully for a crime that he didn't do to realize that I would have been there for him always.
Boo: A childhood hero.
Princess Diana
Cruella: Something you really want but you aren't allowed to have.
A past love. The right people but the wrong timing situation.
Seven Dwarfs: 7 things you like in the people around you.
There ability to be wild and free.
Child like Faith
Organizational ability
Helpful nature
Simplicity
Carefree
Naivety
Kronk: What you are best at in the kitchen?
Cooking, creative meals
Simba: Something a parent has taught you.
It is okay to not always be right, but you should always know the difference between compromising and giving in.
Cinderella: "A dream is a wish your heart makes" What's that for you?
To find the happy balance where I work to live not live to work. And be happy with my life choices, the good bad and ugly.
Nemo: Your bravest moment.
Leaving my ex husband
Terk: Are you a big brother/sister figure to anyone?
I am a mother like figure to a lot of people but not a sister besides my two brothers.
Buzz: Your favourite fantasy world (aka Harry Potter, Star Wars), if any.
Harry potter, or the imagination geographia series by James Owens
Alice: Done drugs?
Mari Jane yes nothing else but prescriptions when directed.
Peter Pan: Something from your childhood that you still love.
Disney movies
Merida: What are you most passionate about?
My kids, my family, my crafting, and most of all my God.
I know I have not been on her in a while. Sorry.
Tomorrow I am setting out on a journey to break and make a couple new habits.
First off plan on working out most days.
I am cutting soda from my diet, and
doing another photo challenge.
I am knitting a shawl using a variegated cool tone fingering yarn from knit picks. Which is turning out lovely.
Also plan on starting some of my christmas crafts.
Dont firget a new job and more time with my girls
Well ill post my first photo tomorrow as well as my workout for tomorrow.
Had a great day at work, I am being pushed more into a management position and less of a technician. I am okay with this but tonight I am furthering my education as a referee. As a part time fun job I referee youth soccer. I have done everything younger then 19. I referee with my family, my brother and dad are also referees. It is great to go out and be active and support kids being active. And hey the money is not bad. I am also selling girls scout cookies for my girls.
Don't forget in the end I am still and knitting mama!
Today I am embarking on a new venture. Hairpin lace. I am making an ameboid-like shawl utilizing hairpin circles of various sizes into a unique pattern. I am using alpaca lace from knit picks. I am happy to say I have already calculated my circles and even did a gauge swatch.
20 stitches over 3 inches.
So a 3 inch circle requires 48 stitches. Pi r squared - oh how I love math.
My 4 inch circles will require 84 hairpin stitches.
My 2 inch circles will require 21 hairpin stitches.
